I mean that the abuse you ecperienced growing up was pervasive, it touched and affected many parts of your life, it got into your central core and affected very many of your feelings and experiences. It was a big deal and that is why it still hurts you now.

With regard to T: the standards for involuntary IP are as feralkittymom and I said above. However it would b naive to imagine that all Ts follow these standards with exactitude. You could ask T about it, hypothetically. Ultinately, though, you would have to be able to trust her to do the right thing, to be professional. What do you think? Does your experience with her to date give you good and sufficient reason to trust her?

Good job passing the time!