I wish I could find out what kind of mood disorder(s) he has because it has to be something. Last night I got blamed for smashing his rice cakes. I was like "What, seriously you think I would do that?" and he said there was no other explaination. He won't even consider that it may have happened at the store... When I told him he was being unreasonable, he said he didn't do anything wrong by asking a question (he never did admit he accused me of doing it) and said he doesn't like the way I talk to him. I went to bed bawling and haven't stopped all day today. Every move I make or don't make, every decision I do or don't make...I ALWAYS consider 1st thing how it will affect him. I look at things in every possible angle to make sure I don't do anything to set him off, but no matter how hard I try to avoid it, I still set him off. I just want to understand this. I do all the cooking, cleaning, laundry, mow the grass, run the errands, tend to the dogs, make sure he has all his special foods he likes... I plan my whole day around making sure everything is perfect and I get accused of breaking his rice cakes, purposely. And I find myself apologizing for something I didn't do and then be told I'm acting like an idiot. How can someone be this up and down? How can it be fixed? I tried talking to him today about it but he doesn't have time to deal with me (his words)... It breaks my heart.
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