I feel like nothing is wrong with me. But I certainly wouldn't hold a job or pretty much anything at this point in time. I think I don't have the capacity to. But I don't feel "dark" like usual. I'm not sad. I almost feel happy and suicidal at the same time. Not saying I would, that's not the point of this post as I know that's not allowed (am I even allowed to say that much?). It's just to give you an idea of how odd that seems. Maybe it's the new meds? I definitely am experiencing anhedonia as well as a flat affect all other times. Just feel a little... High almost. And at the same time very depressed in all other respects. It isn't all the time, but enough over the past few weeks to be a bit unsettling. Has anyone else experienced this before? Is this normal?