I too have difficulty in showing or even identifying my emotions. It has just been recently that I have given myself permission to start showing some of them. I too know that the abuse has shoved the emotions internally and that I needed to work with that through my therapy. I will warn you, be careful what you wish for. I was unable to cry, and now I seem to cry all the time even when I think it is a stupid reason to cry. Needless to say I am still working on this issue. Good luck on your journey.