I have a very hard time telling when I am manic or just excited/happy ... I have delusions and hallucinations that are so real to me at the time, so there is no way to tell until it is too late.

Once the crash comes, hindsight becomes 20/20 Oh what fun! I feel like I am relearning myself all over again since accepting my diagnosis a couple of months ago, at least I am sticking to my meds this time round