I'm glad you were able to get some more support. I can relate to needing more also, but not having the resources to get what I need. I went to the er a few times here, and all it did was stark the crash for just a bit longer (even the inpatient did only that). Maybe you can figure out which inpatient would be helpful, and try to get a referral to there? Renfrew had a great program when I did it a long time ago. I don't know if one of those centers are near you, but you could give them a call. ((Hugs)) I hope you can access what you need soon!