I know it is so scary and nerve wracking teepee. It may be very hard on you when you speak certain things. It may make you feel bad afterwards for stirring up all the emotions. The important thing to remember is that with time, the more you talk about these things the more you will heal. If you don't talk about them at all, you will never heal. It will be scary and painful. But it's the only way to get well. I am wishing you the best of luck. Let us know how it goes.