I just don't know how I feel. I know I don't feel great, but I also don't feel like slicing my legs. Lately all of my emotion has just balled up into my stomach, like in a big lump. I made myself vomit yesterday ...never done that before. And I don't want bad teeth, so I don't want to make it a habit, but tonight that deep pitted ball of "feelings" sits like a weight in my stomach once again. Its more of a physical pain with just enough emotion to know its not medically based. I don't have T for a few more days (Monday), and I do plan to open up with her more...I feel like I'm ready to begin being healed, but until then I must cope...and I just don't know how. I feel void.