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Originally Posted by feralkittymom
Has she ever actually screamed at you outside? When she has been visible outside (not from the safety of the house)? I ask because I always carried the fear with me, but in fact, my mother never behaved that way where anyone could see or hear her.
I think you're right that you don't need to worry about how you'll use your license; right now, the power is in getting it.
And I do think it's all about control. It's not about you (I know how difficult it is to believe in that), it's about her need to control--for her reasons.
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I have memories of her yelling at me outside but not where people could absolutely see her. I remember her hurting me on like the 12th floor of a hotel at night outside on this balcony over the streets below. I remember seeing police cars zooming about down there and wishing one of them would save me.
Part of me feels like she's saying that because she feels like I will wreak a car. Part of me agrees with that. But I know that doesn't mean it will happen even if she thinks that.