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Originally Posted by feralkittymom
I really think you're catastrophizing their control because of your fear. And that is perfectly understandable. But don't assume that the scale of your feelings reflects objective reality. Your assessment of their control is being fueled by very powerful childhood fears. Of course, the possibility of all sorts of reactions is there, but the liklihood of those actions happening is very different, and not dependent upon your current feelings.
You don't need your parents' permission to not speak to them. That's your fear talking.
Try to step outside of your feelings for now. Put them in a box and distract yourself.
Get through the next days, and then work with your T on a plan to become financially and emotionally separate from your parents. You can do this.  |
Thank you. You're probably right. I'm just assuming the worst possible situation out of fear. I don't want them to catch me off guard.
I don't understand why I am so afraid of them. It was never that severe. I never needed medical attention after it. Maybe just some ice for the bruises but I wasn't near death or anything like that. I shouldn't be so afraid. It really wasn't that bad and I don't know why I'm overreacting like this and why I am living on edge getting set off by the smallest things or why I'm physically shaking just because I heard someone walk across the room upstairs.
I really wish I had more ativan. I need a break from this.