Yes, this happened several years ago... Am not sure sure why it came up now. It just popped in my head. As for the guilt for me, since this did happen several years ago, I don't know how I feel. I am soo good at numbing out things that are not comfy for me... I guess talking about it and seeing others point of view will help me better understand and hopefully put a closure on this part of my life......

I think I do feel worse about writing the letter than what happened..which doesn't really make sense..

See, that is part of the issue.. I am not upset over his behavior whereas my therapist was. I don't understand why I am not upset ..I guess being taken advantage of is or has always been a part of my life. So it isn't new.

I think I am making sense. hmmm