I am hurting so badly and am so confused, desperate for answers, wanting to know what was real and what was mental illness. I fell hopelessly in live with a bp man 4 mo ago. The relationship was intense, we shared so many of the same interests, he told me everything I've ever wanted to hear. We were proactive, worked as a couple to understand his moods and triggers. Then, about a month ago, he became angry with me, started to shut me out, became evasive and passive aggressive. He broke up with me multiple times, always lamented this decision, would apologize and promise to work harder on his issues with his therapist. I tried to be supportive, avoided judgement and blame. Last night he broke up with me for the last time and became verbally abusive. Accused me of manipulating him for the past for months, getting into his head, and making him sick. His anger was almost delusional, he vilified me, and told me that he is so happy to be free of me. I am so profoundly hurt, and trying hard not to internalize or believe the things he said about me. Why did his happen? Does he really believe all the things he said? Was the whole relationship a manipulation. How can a deal with my hurt, my anger, knowing that I will never have any answers?