i survived the 2 days of meeting up with relatives... the babysitting, the facades, the sudden urges to si and cry.. survived it all. up: i did not si. but i don't know whether i can still hold in because i feel really tired and empty now..

down: i still have MORE relatives to visit because it's the visiting season now.. i don't know whether i can continue this facade. and more: i don't know whether i can handle work... feel like calling in sick but family won't let me.

depression can be such a monster at times....