I think I'm on my way to full mania but I don't even care. Just had a dance party with my toddler and it was the best! He is so awesome.

I did start the trileptal last night. Made me tired enough to sleep so that's good. I have a feeling when I see the pdoc next week she's gonna put me on another ap since I've been seeing things again. I can't take risperdal because it made me lactate (at fifteen, how humiliating!!). Seroquel gives me restless legs. Abilify kept me down in a depression. I don't want to try zyprexa because of weight gain. What else is there? Anything that doesn't have a generic I won't be able to afford it since I have to pay out of pocket until I reach my deductible on my insurance. I tried geodon once but it kept me up all night. But I didn't give it a chance - could that have been a temporary side effect?

I'm so high right now I don't even care but it could turn on me at any moment. I hope it doesn't. I just want to ramble on for awhile! Does anyone else think they have magical powers while manic? I think I have the power to change the world through my writing but I can't seem to finish an essay. I also think I can heal people. There's a girl in my program who seems so sad! I thought I could help her but I didn't get a chance yesterday. Maybe Monday!

Sorry for rambling. So high right now.