i agree. definitely try to get a pdoc if you don't already have one. the severe depression is what's most upsetting because of the suicidality. this is what i started experiencing earlier in the year. i had my first true manic episode in april. it was fun until it turned on me and it can turn quickly. you may have some form of bipolar disorder if you haven't already been dx'ed. the depression mixed with agression is concerning as well. try to get to a pdoc as soon as you can.

welcome to PC and i hope you feel better soon!