I've lost the will to live. I just don't see any meaning behind it. There is no god, no heaven. Nothing.

I'm sick of all of this. sick and tired of doing pointless assignments at school (junior in highschool).. I'm going to fail half of my classes this semester because of my absences. I've lost all of my friends. I don';t have the will to speak with anyone at school, unless I have to. But even then it is difficult... I was dx'ed with asperger's syndrome 6 years ago..

I have a former best friend who sits right next to me in one of my classes, and we don't even talk to each other. I can't say a word. i'm failing that class.

Im having chronic head pain/headaches everyday it seems.. stomach problems.. it hurts to walk or even wake up in the morning. I'm feeling fatigued everyday... Nauseous.. so tired.. temper tantrums.. etc etc. I feel incredibly guilty about all of this.. I don't even deserve emotions. I have a nice home, family, computer, all the opportunities one could ask for. yet they're all going down the drain because of my hollowness. I cant even be social or affectionate to anyone.. None of this is worth it.. I just can't take all of this anymore..

I just needed to get this out there.. I dont think people understand..