Thanks so much. All of this advice was really great. I'm done seeing this guy now - the last time I was with him we both got drunk (he's of age, but I'm not) and although we started having sex with a condom (thanks to your advice), I'm pretty sure he took it off mid-act but everything is fuzzy because I wasn't sober. So of course, I've learned that I shouldn't trust that guy because that's super sketchy. Now my anxiety about having HIV is killing me. I had a dream that I tested positive (after I had been worrying about it) and I've been feeling weird ever since. (This unfortunate encounter happened last weekend.) I started reading a bunch of stuff about HIV and have convinced myself that he has it. I try to read statistics, and I put my information in an STD calculator and all, and although my chances are statistically low, they aren't impossible! I have to wait a few months before I can test, but it just makes me so nervous! I used to worry a lot about random illnesses as a child, and I've always been one to jump to crazy conclusions, and worry about worst case scenarios, but my dream was so real! If I got chlamydia or gonorrhea or something I wouldn't even be mad! I've just convinced myself I've contracted HIV and I'll live a lonely life.. The guy is college educated and an athlete, and he has a job but he lives with his family, and his friends don't seem suspicious in the slightest, but now HE seems so suspicious to me! I think I just needed to vent about this. I know that I'll only know for sure once I get tested in a few months, but I feel like I can't focus. I also feel extremely dirty. Since my dream, my body has felt different. I've also entertained the idea that maybe I'm pregnant now..

BOTTOM LINE is that I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON! I really need to take more ownership in these kinds of situations. I'm upset because I knew better, and because I've always been good and made smart decisions, and now a few poor decisions are causing me stress. I have a lot of ideas about how I'll handle future situations involving sex, protection, and alcohol in the future.