finding that I am adopting a 'who cares' attitude about most things. I've started sleeping in late and that is usually an indication of my cycle leading towards depression. Even though I know this, I don't really care! I play so much in the 'normal' world that times like now I really do believe that I don't have a problem... I guess kind of like pinnochio believing he is a real boy lol.

but my 'I don't care' attitude has led me to some really cool things lately...
more joking around...
more laughing...

all of the things that I need to combat this stupid phase that I am in.

I cycle still.. constantly...
but if anyone were to ask me, I would say no.
would say that I am fine.

why would I do that? I don't let people in.

I think that's cuz once I focus on it, it all becomes too real and that is triggering for me. nah, it's better for me to not care bout it and keep it light.

so that's where I am in my thinking and in life.