I'm going to my daughter's today to spend the weekend. This should make me very happy, since I haven't seen her since May, but I'm feeling so depressed i don't want to even go. I need to discuss some things with her about the future and what a mess I've made of my life. Not looking forward to the discussion. I've left myself open for financial disaster due to no health insurance that I want to plan what to do with the money I still have. I want to pre-plan my funeral. I want her input, but while she is logical and methodical in her thinking and not crazy like her mom, I'm afraid I'm going to be a wreck. I just want to make sure when I die she doesn't have to pay for my funeral, so I want to plan it now and go ahead a pay for it now while i still have the money. I have it logically thought out but not sure I can actually talk about it without becoming a basket case. It doesn't help that at the time I'm un-medicated for my depression and I am severly depressed right now, but not suicidal. I'll be glad when I can get back on my meds. I'm sorry I'm just rambling. I just needed to get it out before I get to her house.
Gayle