"How do I connect with the rage and disgust that should be there? How do I find that little girl inside that surely must have been devestated?Where is my inner child? Where is the hurt?"

Faith - for me it just happened over time with each new memory that I worked to remember. As I put each part of that memory together - matching this smell with that taste, with that sight, with that sound with that touch the emotions came along with it.

I don't force myself to feel one set emotion or another doing that for me is a sure way for me to not feel it through dissociation. So instead I concentrate on remembering what happened to me and let the emotional side come as it does.

What helps me in connecting with each of the pieces of my memories is that I draw, write, paint and use crafts to show what happened to me besides the telling of what happened to me. putting it in these forms helps to make it more real, more tangible more ... everything.

Hang in there it will happen for you when it is time for it to happen for you.