I don't really know. It's too hot to tell. I'm frustrated. I want things to be easy. I want to make a choice, and stick with it. I want my calling to step and, y'know, CALL to me. So I can recognize it. And stop being tempted by so many options that I can't make up my mind.
I want to stop feeling like no matter what I decide it's all useless anyway because I'm always going to be ill...