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Originally Posted by MarlboroChick
Has anyone ever heard of this?
"Münchausen syndrome by proxy ( MSbP or MBP) is a controversial term that is used to describe a behavior pattern in which a caregiver deliberately exaggerates, fabricates, and/or induces physical, psychological, behavioral, and/or mental health problems in those who are in their care. "
My pdoc thinks im having a paranoid schizophrenic episode because i wanted to talk to him about this, and how i thought it sounded like my own mother. He says he 'always thought this might be the issue', about the schizophrenia. Im afraid to tell him anything more since he obviously doesnt believe me. He already talked to my mother about it and she said she agreed, give her meds, etc.
Usually after beating me, she comes right back, tells me she's sorry and to not do whatever I did wrong again, and helps me (???) and then tells everyone i had an accident.
Im afraid to eat or drink anything she gives me because theres been times where she slipped me something and ive gotten really sick. Im not sure if id done something wrong and this was her way of punishment, but it was weird.
I dont know. Maybe shes just concerned. I always want to slap diagnoses on people to explain them because thats what always happened to me haha. But she really confuses me.
I guess im just looking for second opinions to see if im going crazy or not ahaha. |
I don't think crazy is necessarily a bad thing, are you hearing voices? Your mom sounds like she's the one who really needs help. I used to be abusive like that to people I cared about, before my first round of psychiatric treatment, I would do the same kind of cruel things to my brother, animals etc... Then I would hug them and tell them I was sorry (I genuinely was) and that I would hope they didn't do whatever it was that made me mad again.
So I messed up and made the same mistakes that were made with me, then I felt bad about it because I knew exactly how they felt being so defenseless against the abuse.
I don't think feeling your mom might poison you is part of a paranoid delusion, especially if she'd poisoned you before. On the other hand the food could've expired and maybe she didn't put anything in there, per-say. I used to get that way about food when I was a child, I thought my parents hated me so much that they would poison me so I was scared to eat when my anxiety got really high. If I could go back and rewind time I would've reported the abuse to the authorities. Especially knowing now, since hindsight is always 20/20, that I had other family members that could've taken better care of me.
