I think that mistakes can be forgiven and we don't necessarily need to change our names to reinvent ourselves per se. And like Christina, I'm pretty sure I know who you "used to be" just from the little bit I've read today alone. I've been gone for a while, so I don't know what happened here that made you panic, but if you feel you're ready to be the "old you" again then it's probably time. I would imagine that some people are wondering what happened to you and will be glad to "see" you again.