well today was a TOTAL disaster.
I went to the walkin clinic...got there at 1:15pm...already full.
I literally broke down in tears right there. The case manager was standing right there, and I had talked to her earlier and told her that I was not ok.
Walked out of there almost sobbing and no one said a word to me after they said it was full.

So...then I called another psychiatry place -- basically the only other one in town, only to be told when they called me back that their next opening is in December! So I called one about an hour away, and they did a short intake over the phone and then said they would submit my papers to the doctors and I should find out IF they will take me within 5 business days. I forgot to ask how far out they are booking appointments at this point.

It's frustrating because it looks like the ONLY way I will get ANYTHING done with meds without waiting a month or longer is by going into the hospital. It's the LAST thing I want to do. In any case, I am going to work really hard this weekend to get everything done for next week (my last week of summer class)...and then if I have to go in, I can do that before Fall semester starts on the 19th.

Maybe that would be the best option at this point? I don't know. I don't want to go back to the hosptial here, so I decided that IF I have to go, I will drive an hour to the larger city and just go to the ER there, it's not like they would tell me to go back to my town.
Ugh...I just don't know exactly what I need at this point!