Blessings and welcome to PC it is nice to meet you.

When I was first diagnosed, my pdoc later told me that I looked like a deer in headlights That was two months ago, and after starting and stopping my meds three time over has shown I still don't really accept it...even though I can now clearly see the signs, my delusional mind still wrestles with it.

I even went to get second opinions, third opinions, I don't know what for... definitely ill! I have been on my meds for about two weeks, and this is the longest I have stuck it out. No more manic for now, but left down in the dumps. Just started bupropion a few days ago, hope it pulls me up soon. Hope I don't throw my meds away again, too!