yes I do. But I also don't have a very strong support system outside of T and groups there at that place. So I'm trying to explore things on my own.

Today I figured out one thing, the more sugar I eat, the more depressed I feel. and I like sugar... so tomorrow I'm going to try and go cold turkey from sugar.. and see how the day goes.. and If I can I need to curve my eating. Tomorrow Is not going to be easy. and I'll be alone for most of the day, except when I go out and oh wait I'll be alone then too. GRRR> I have got to find a way to be less alone, and busy doing something ... ahhhhh.

I guess I could have been uncomfortable, I just don't know. my T thinks that there is something behind the stories that I read that night to try and figure out what that feeling was, that very first day. I have gotten out the stories again, and may/or not read them.

With work this week has been crazy, and I have slept more than I should have, but I have been on a night/day reverse schedule for this week. and then with bring up the stores and the flashbacks to that night, I just don't feel very strong tonight, Like I need to be right now to just get through the night. Did I mention I have NO ONE around to talk to right now. Ahhh I hate this!!!!