I can't help but seeing myself saying "me, myself and I" in every post that I have used in my first 5-7 post on here. I can't say that this one might be different.

My sister, who is selfish, calls me a spoiled little brat. I can't help but to question if she is right or is it her not being able to handle attention being drawn away from her? I was the youngest of three and she the oldest. Admitting that I have done selfish things but I'm not looking for a spotlight.

She has been the one who says I need to see a doctor, my mom had once been happy for me to be off medication but after my sister said anything about me and medication my mom changed her mind.

After all this I feel like I can't talk to them as then I might find myself going on a doctor visit I would rather not be on. I also don't want to talk with my friends or boyfriend as I'm not sure if they really understand where I am right now. That is a big reason why I feel somewhat alone on this matter in my life.

If I talk about it I'm worrying too much about any illness. If I speak with friends they just say it's how life is and I'll get over it. "It's a fact of life". I've learned how to sit still and enjoy the pages of a book or doing lines of computer code. I've learn how to need go off on things that don't really matter but I still do more often than I would like to say I do. My boyfriend sees all that and believes that I can't be ADD because I can sit for hours if I'm invested in the subject I'm handling.

I'm not really self-centered, at least try not to be and choose not to let it get the better of me. I even hate really being open on here as I'm not sure what kind of time I'll be able to give or if I'll be able to help others on here in the first place.