I hope you can feel that at least with us on PC you can feel connected to someone. We can fully understand your pain since we also experience it. I have found the live chat very soothing when I needed to feel connected somewhere. I also feel that way in the social clubs. I hope you find some that you like.
It's true that it may be just that your family sees what they expect to see and not that they don't care. You may need to explain things to them. I know this is hard but if you use this site as a reference you may get a bit more courage.
I hope you feel better soon.