I feel like I am a lost cause and that it is hopeless to think that I will ever be able to change or go anywhere in life. I'm dealing with depression, learning disabilities, and AD/HD, but it is my OCPD (extreme perfectionism) that seems to be doing the most damage.

I've gotten to the point where I can barely manage to keep up with two courses, and that's with me not even having a job to get in the way, and spending all of my time on schoolwork. The semester starts in 9 days, and I am nowhere near ready. I was supposed to spend the last 6 weeks tending to my disaster of a house, studying for a certification exam, and completing lots of old assignments that have to be in my portfolio for graduation, but never got done. I seriously don't know what I have doing for the last 6 weeks, except getting distracted by everything but what I need to be focusing on.

To make matters worse, I get my therapy from graduate students doing their practicum, so pretty much each semester I get a new person, but I've been told that therapy isn't meant to last this long and that this will be the last semester, and then I will have go back on the very long waiting list. I've already exhausted the other counseling options available on campus, and I can't afford the places off campus.

I feel like this is my last chance to "get better", and with only 15 sessions, with a brand new therapist no less, I'm not sure how I will make this happen.