Here is a suggestion ...

If you have someone to talk to, call a friend vent a bit (just a little, tho) and get some support. Then, even though you don't feel like it, set a timer and work on your house for 15 minutes, study for the certification exam for 15 minutes, and work on the old assignments that go in the portfolio for 15 minutes. Do not do any more work than that today. Go have some fun afterward. Let go of the therapy issue today since you cannot fix it anyway.

I am always surprised how much I can get done in 15 min. and how much better I feel about myself afterward.

And by the way, anyone who is seeking answers is not a failure or hopeless. And although I've certainly tried it, beating myself up never got me anywhere.

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
~ Lao Tzu~