Hi johnny and thanks for the reply. I do worry about my appearance, never leave the house without makeup and looking atleast decent. I shower everyday and sometimes twice a day. Im very artistic so I dress as such. I was very poor as a child though, my mom would take my siblings and I to a church once a month to get bags of free clothes. We rarely shopped and if we did it was at thrift stores or dollar stores. So I think this plays a role in my self esteem issues as well. I know other people think Im attractive, I just have a hard time believing it. And sometimes I feel as if people can tell how I grew up, that no matter how long I spend on myself, they can see where I came from just from looking at me. I cant wear heels because of my back surgeries and I lost 2 inches in my torso because my spine is curved. I feel like people can see this as well though my family and t say they cant tell. Are they just being nice?