Thanks starkravingmad I had my session on Friday and basically told her that she will dump me when it gets hard and to her credit she sat there and then very calmly asked me what she has done to make me think that, then something went snap in me and I told her if it was about her we won't have to focus on me, strangely that deflection didn't work and spent the rest of the session trying not to cry and not talking. So I never got to ask what I wanted but there is always next week! Heart still racing palms still sweaty and still angry and frustrated