Ok...so I KNOW I should NOT do this, but I feel like I have NO other choices. I saw a pdoc in June. He started me on wellbutrin - 100mg once a day. He even said it's just a starting dose. Next appt: Sept 6.
I have tried to get in, I know something has to be done, and I know I am not on the "normal" dosage of it...

I am looking into other psychiatrists at the moment because the place I am begin seen is horrible -- I have tried to get in, and I can't. It's looking like I have just a couple of options...go to the hospital for med adjustment, or do my own med adjustment knowing I will have just enough meds if I do so to get me to the next scheduled appointment (in the meantime searching for a better pdoc)...or just suffer through with increasing suicidal thought and increasing depression because my current place doesn't care.

Yesterday I went to their walkin hours, I was told by my case manager that it starts at 2pm, so if I get there around 1:30 it should be good. I got there at 1:15 and it was already full. I literally broke down right there. She was standing there near the receptionist too. Neither of them said a word to me. I had talked with her on the phone earlier that morning and told her that I really was NOT ok. Then for me to have a breakdown like that and just walk out I feel was totally irresponsible of them. Obviously I wasn't ok. What if I had left and killed myself? I certainly FELT like doing so!

Anyway, I did some research and the normal dosage is 300mg -- 100mg 3x/day or the 150mg 2x/day. So I have decided that since I cannot get a hold of a psychaitrist, and I don't want to go into the hospital, I am going to adjust my own medication and see what it does.