I have pushed so many people out of my life because of the stupid things you say and do when you are manic and I didn't even know then that I was bipolar I just thoght I was losing my mind and was going through the change of life.Now that I know I am bipolar I tell people that I don't always have control of my actions and tell them to read up on bipolar if they really care. Maybe then they can try to understand the hell we go through.