All it seems i think about these days is just how i could hurt myself. I've been studying alot for exams lately, spending endless hours in the library, but i can't stay focused. I spend most of my time wishing i were somewhere else and just planning on what i'm going to do once i get home. Its so scary to think that the only way i can "deal" with my stuff is by hurting myself ... or at least spending hours obsessing about it. I wish i could make it stop ....