I have been loving it without the boss in over the last two weeks... I have an easier time hiding behind my mania then the depression.

Problem is this- my boss actually referred me to the pdoc I have been seeing, and before she left on her holiday, I was a manic mess. My boss knows all about my ups/downs and all diagnosis, as I am very open about my illness. Kind of have to be in my line of work (we work with the mentally ill and homeless, and I am a case manager....yeah, I know!)

When I was first diagnosed months ago, she stated that as long as I can perform, she will not have an issue with my illness.

Now that I have been medicated with Zyprexa, my mania is gone for now, but it has left me in the dumps. She will see this very easily.

Pdoc gave me bupropion xr for the depression(Wellbutrin generic) and it has yet to work. I have already been on thin ice because of my illness, and I have had the toughest week yet. I actually had to go home a few days ago because I could not cope. This will not fly with my boss.

I am afraid my boss will see the magnitude of my depression and that it will present a problem. Financially, I need this job right now, and my wife would kill me if I was let go.

I just don't know what to do. HELP!!