I'm supposed to turn 31 tomorrow.
I am to go to my favorite restaurant tonight with some friends.

Right now though, I'm sitting in the sunlight in my room and posting to the bipolar section of a mental health support board.
...I just kind of got told off for something that I thought was neutral and innocuous, only now I'm left with the feeling that I quite clearly do not belong, reinforced.
It's not anyone else's fault and the offended person isn't mean or anything, they were upset and that's fine.

But there are plenty of things that I don't understand; it creates problems... pretty much everywhere- online, in "real life", in my head.

I'm sad, I can't tell if its a so-called legitimate sadness or a so-called mood episode. But it sucks.

And I feel like I'll be ridiculed for this as well, but... is there a more appropriate place to put this? A right way to say any of it?

I'm not sure if I am being self indulgent and melodramatic and I apologize if that is the case.

I feel a bit lost.
...and thats how my day is going.