Thanks all of you.
I'm not seeing anyone, and I doubt I will ever.
It's just hard to deal with everything, as I'm sure you understand.

I very much just want to sleep and never wake up. As much as I know it's selfish, at least I'd never have to deal with this anymore.
I suppose that's just another of my flaws: selfishness.

I just dont know how to deal with it. And I dont know how to help myself. I dont know how to make myself feel anything other than this.

Living is hard. Even harder when you have noone to turn to. Even harder when the things that at least make living bearable youre no good at. Even harder when youre not actually good at anything (ask any friend, family member or teacher. They'd verify that!)

I know that other people feel the same, but how do they deal with it?

My best and only real friend has moved on (and still chooses to take the mick out of my weight and all of my other flaws, despite my hate of it, and the fact i dont say anything about hers)
My choice of study is expensive and I'm not even good at it.
My "hobbies" are all things I'm worst at.

I dont know what I'm meant to do with this. Is there any point in even living, really?

Sorry xxxxx