Life today was exhausting on so many levels. I am tired. Inside and out, life is dry as the desert wind right at this moment. This depression is so far in my bones and is palpable. It is a part of myself that wants so much to rest. Burned out, and burned up it is frustrating. I love, and care so very much, and unavailable.

I have people I talk to and that say that they understand, but really sensing true empathy is not the same is it? So, I forgive and for a time must retreat from the world. Isolation is sometimes the only medicine that works for me. Though, it is a retreat of sorts in reality.

So, there are friends who have the same issues, and when I am in the dark place why can't they reciprocate? They "care" yes, and sometimes I just cannot articulate what, how, why, and don't care to dump my own emotional stuff on others....really. One of my friends called enraged, screaming that I didn't care about her.... I do care, and i'm tired.

This is my honest feelings right now. Just, tired.

That's all I have to say for now.
Thanks.