Not sure if this is the right place to post this...but i am feeling so lost...so alone, so lonely.

and i feel such intense anger and hatred toward myself.

my meds aren't right, i know that. can't get in with a stupid pdoc.
i just don't know what to do with all of these intense feelings. i just want to self destruct. i made promises to my T that i won't.

i hate feeling so alone, and so depressed. and so hopeless.

just need some support and encouragement