I can't say i know how you feel but what i do know i'll will share gladly. All good things happen to those who love the Lord and God answer the prayers of those who love Him. The thing is that sometimes we can't see how God answer our pryers or it happens only after our time. This is why it's so importand to believe in His Word and to have faith. Me of all people know how it feel to be in a place where you are crying out for Father to help.....and still nothing....All i have is to hang on to His promises and to remind Him of them because in the end Jesus did die for every one, we just have to except His timing.

It sounds like you really love our Lord Jesus, never never lose your love for Him and just maybe He'll surprise you, and you'll see miricels happen in front of your eyes.

Sorry for my bad spelling