i feel like such a failure right now. i dont know what to do. i just hurt myself. and its the best ive felt in a while. i cant take it anymore. i could use someone to talk to right about now. i feel like my heart is literally breaking. ive always been the one people go to for advice, but i need help now. i can t help myself. %#@&#!. i sont know what the hell im doing in life. i am a freakin g liar. i tell every one that i am ok. what drove me to this site? what drives me to cut? im not ok. i ralize that. i just dont know what to do with it now that i do. i really hurt and dont know what to do.