Thanks for the responses everyone. I wish I could say I'm feeling better today, but I would be a liar if I did. I'm not on any anti-depressants or seeing a therapist and sadly I don't have ANY friends to talk to (so thanks for allowing me to pour my heart out here). This may sound like an extremely foolish thing to say (so feel free to slap some sense into me) but I'm actually a little afraid to get help. I've lived the same way as I am now for most of my life. I don't know another way to be or live. I realize my current situation isn't good, but I'm afraid to change it. Has anyone felt this way before?