just wanted to thank everyone for your advice and support and to say that when i saw my t this week it went sooooo much better. she was so proactive about suggesting things that made total sense. bit of a breakthrough i guess. and she assured me she wasnt mad at me which was great too. i did get stuff written out for her and had questions and things but didnt even get a chance to show or ask her cos what she was saying was so fascinating and spot on. i told her at the end i had planned to ask her though and she said to ask next week. i feel much much better than i did.
thank you all.
biiv