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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
And I was relatively fine until something last year sent me over the edge. Long story short, I had just moved here for school and I met a guy that I expressed feelings for too soon...and he was upset that I couldn't just automatically reset and be just friends and he ended up terrorizing me. I don't know if that was completely his intent or that I just became terrified.
Terrified that I was being followed...terrified of running into him anywhere I went and terrified of him using that to claim that I was stalking him. Terrified of something unidentifiable. So I had to sleep in my closet.
((Cut out some parts myself - Red Panda))
So in the above case (with the guy I had just met) the irrational had come true too. If the irrational can happen, then is it not then rational?
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I'm so sorry that you had to go through feeling like that.
But I do have a question: you said that he terrorized you, but you haven't said how at all. You've given us your reaction to feeling terrorized, but not anything that he's done. He just rejected you and wanted to be friends - what did he do after?
You've asserted that your irrational fear around him had came true - but haven't told us how. I know that it might be hard to say HOW he terrorized you, but I think it would help the rest of us respond to you. Because if he just rejected you and then you responded the way you did, with him just trying to be friends... well.. then your fear was irrational and your response irrational.
But that's only if he didn't do anything at all, so I think it would help some of us to know what he did that made you feel terrorized.
I really think a T would be able to help you, and possibly a pdoc. Your trust issues seem to go beyond trust issues and into paranoia, but only a pdoc and T would really be able to determine that for you. Plus, they're PAID to remain confidential and they aren't going to mess with that unless they feel like sabotaging their career (with you know, the exception of if they really think that you are going to harm yourself or someone else).