I am so sorry that the system is so not working for you. A whole year working on getting disability and not there yet is ridiculous. It breaks my heart about your kids and Christmas. The Salvation Army is a good idea. Or some churches help during this time of year even if you don't go to thier church. And the best is making them something. I am a terrible cook but cookies can be on their way for all of you.

Please don't give up hope. Your family needs you and loves you. I am here and you can always PM me if you care to.