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Originally Posted by Teen Idle
I haven't been sleeping right. I thought it was because I'd give myself an hour nap during the day (depression) so I stopped. Alas, I still can't sleep. For example, my normal nights end up with me seeing my mom at 7am to have tea and then I go back to bed to sleep from 8am till 10pm, and in that span of time I have the worst nightmares.
TW: blood/bones
The other night I had a dream that all of my bones were falling out through my skin. I actually /felt/ pain. I heard the most disgusting noises, and in the dream I saw "myself" in the mirror and I woke up when something particularly graphic happened.
Last night, I had a dream that these gashes where coming out of no where, and I couldn't stop bleeding. No one would help me. It was disgusting, and nothing disgusts me involving the body.
It's stressful and exhausting and I wake up hyperventilating and literally running out of my bed.
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Sounds like a series of nightmares I had as well. Where I could actually feel the pain or feel things that I was touching in my sleep, like I was actually suffering and being tortured. I don't know what's worse about these dreams: not waking up and having to suffer the whole night, or waking up sweating, heart pounding in your chest and feeling violated. I'm sorry you are going through this, are you being severely stressed by someone or something in life right now? In my experience that's what caused that to happen to me.
That was the case for me, the nightmares got more intense when I first started therapy. But since I've been going a few months now the nightmares are less frequent and less severe, I even had a couple dreams! I liken what's happening to panic attacks in your sleep. I definitely agree with PAYNE1 you should seek treatment if you aren't in treatment already. Don't be afraid to talk about these dreams, learn how to reduce stress as much as possible and the nightmares
should become less intense. With time and good therapy you will actually be able to dream again some day, instead of having these terrifying nightmares that totally mess up your whole day.
