Hi, thanks both.

Yes, the feeling has lasted almost a year. In Jan I started on antidepressants, have tried 3 different ones, prescribed by the crisis center, but they have not helped. I haven't had ability to have a doctor follow me and change dosages or meds - since they do not provide that service.

There's nothing that gets me thru the day or gives me a little comfort. None of the things I used to enjoy or get comfort from are enjoyable anymore.

Sometimes reading a novel does ( I read at least one a day) but sometimes I can't even read. And I basically spend my life trying to zone out.

I talk to a therapist once a week now and still feel this way. I just qualified for services after 9 months of trying - I am qualified as SMI since now the depression has gone on severely for over a year, I can get services, whereas before, as a poor person I couldn't. Don't ask - this state is pathetic, not even medicaid.

Anyway, I see a doctor on Friday and maybe I'll get a drug that helps finally? This doesn't make me feel hopeful though. The others haven't worked. And even if I feel better on a drug my life is still a mess and I don't like my life.