I talk to a therapist once a week now and still feel this way. I just qualified for services after 9 months of trying - I am qualified as SMI since now the depression has gone on severely for over a year, I can get services, whereas before, as a poor person I couldn't. Don't ask - this state is pathetic, not even medicaid.

Anyway, I see a doctor on Friday and maybe I'll get a drug that helps finally? This doesn't make me feel hopeful though. The others haven't worked. And even if I feel better on a drug my life is still a mess and I don't like my life.