So for no reason at all, I'm sure my bf is pulling away. I talked to him yesterday and told a funny story, but he seemed distant..I asked him what he was thinking about (very cheerfully) and he said nothing much. Just about things he has to do at work. Then later when we messaged he said it would be later before he could have a break and 'see' me. And I don't know. He doesn't say I love you unless I do and lately I've been not saying it because I feel like he's getting overwhelmed (even tho I only say it at the end of our conversations).

So then I feel stupid and angry and hurt and sad...all in about 5 minutes. But the sad stayed and I woke up with it. I cried in the shower and still feel stupid. Its probably nothing, but I know him so well. I can't ask him or even bring it up because he'll say I'm starting an argument and maybe I would be, so I just sit on my emotions.

He's here in 2 weeks. I'm scared. So scared.